Ok so i need to rant and get a few things off my chest....
1) This wedding im trying to plan!!
Im pissed off as i seem to be the only one who is really excited and well saving money/doing things! (yes i have saved £150 currently in one week only.- lol i just cut back on my normal shopping habits)
Yes its over 2 yrs away BUT i can still plan stuff cant i...
Danny's Mum was really ignorant when i told her my plans, she said "I will be happy and excited about it when i see your getting better"
WTF, she lives in Devon, im in Merseyside, how the fuk can she see if im doing better, plus i know i have comeon leaps and bounds!! Even Danny seen his arse, but we had a row over it as i said he should confront her and he said no beacause he didnt want to upset the apple cart or hurt her feelings!
So i said "Oh but its ok that she upsets our apple cart and hurts my feelings", he had no answer to that!!
But it really really pissed me off, that was a week and half ago- i have not spoke to her since, well in Honesty since the day after boxing day (when i had an episode infront of her) she aint called us, which is a bit odd, i think i embarrassed her infront of her new husband, but it wasnt my fault, it was my illness.
So then...... I asked my Mum to come dress shopping with me on Fri coming (goinna try on to see which i like/dislike) and granted she works like 24-7, but Fri was her day off and she said she would have to see as she may have to stay in to get her new carpet fitted!! Well that annoyed me as i thought what is more important and frikken carpet or me and my dress. So i told her not to bother and thats how i left it....
Danny wont let me book a venue either(his reason because we have to save the pennies this year to see which one we can afford) even though we have been to see around 15- i now think its been a complete waste of time as i know we will only end up going to them all again next year..
And well i feel like i cant do NOTHING and i hate it, it just doesnt seem real to me, and i really want it to be as even Danny said since this wedding business im a completely diff person, an he thinks it is because my mind is so occupied with wedding stuff that im not really giving my anxiety room to breath which i agree with altho i do still have shaky days (one of them being today), as i have my CBT appointment at 2.30 and i just cant be bothered sitting there chatting bolloks about my anxiety..
Whats a girl to do hey!! I just want things to be perfect but no-one is taking this as serious as i want them too!! HELP!!!!
Sorry, but I'm going to side with Danny & your mother.
ReplyDeleteDanny's mother shouldn't have said what she said, but if Danny challenged her it would probably cause a row, Danny would get upset too (cos we all love our mums even when they're out of order) and what would you have gained? My m-i-law says insulting things to me, occasionally, but I just totally ignore them. It's kept the peace for the last 9 years!
Your mum needs her carpet fitted soon, but your dress can wait for a week or two, so what's your problem?
Is your anxiety making you a bit grumpy? If it is, tell your mum & make peace.
Best wishes
Oh but its ok if i get upset and NO Robert it had nothing to do with my anxiety at all, infact far from it, i dont see why i should be upset when it was HER that made me feel that way.
ReplyDeleteAnd my problem with my dress is that its the most excited time in my life, as with any women! Your a man so i dont expect you to understand, however i found your comment above a bit abrupt and shitty!
I can understand you're really excited hun - i had only THREE weeks to organise my entire wedding from start to finish.
ReplyDeleteTo be honest i am GLAD i only had a couple of weeks, it drove me mad, i almost went off my rocker. There was so much to sort, down the the little things like table cloths/napkins.
My mother and i managed it. I wrote a list of everything i needed and just sorted it as i came it. There is no harm in looking, but you don't want to buy a dress now, in 2 years styles will have changed so much. I LOVED my wedding dress and i bought it 10 days before i was due to get married. If you'd like i will email you a pic...
You'll find planning a wedding, there will be more disagreements than you can imagine.
Keep calm...and breath my love :)
x
No hun i didnt want to buy my dress, i just wanted to try ones on to see what i did/didnt like and what suited me/not suited me- Maybe i should have been a bit more clear. lol
ReplyDeleteAnd yea send me a pic. xx