Right well where do i start.... Maybe the fact i actually was able to write my title before i even wrote my 1st sentence here is starting on a positive!!
So....... me and Danny have just booked our wedding date and have started to go and look at Venues, the venues we looked at are not just local ones, we had to go at least 30mins in the car to get to them and i felt great!! A couple of wobbily moments but on the whole it was fantastic, hardly any anxiety at all!!
So that gave me alot of confidence, so then on Saturday just gone 24/1/09, for the 1st time in around 3-4 years i got on a BUS on my OWN!!, up to my local village and well that wasnt it..... I then went into a cafe and ordered myself a breakfast and ate it on my own THEN walked to Danny's fathers house which is only about 5 mins away!!
Honestly... I was on cloud nine, as you need to know i've not left my house in over a year without Danny!!
Then on the Sunday i went to a wedding fayre, loads of people where there, stayed for around 2 hours, THEN, went for a Sunday Dinner in the pub with my Dad/Danny/sister and her 2 friends, and even though it took ages for our food to come, it was lovely and i really enjoyed myself!
Yesterday (Monday) i chilled out as i had/have a headache- yes i awoke with it this morning still. Grrrrr, and again i went to see another 2 wedding venues this morning, one which was FAB!
It could be the one, fingers crossed, oh and for those ppl who read this an think about getting married... think again. It costs a FORTUNE!!!! I feel so sorry for my father, so im trying to keep it right down.
I also WON the lottery on both Wed and Sat last week
(4 numbers on Wed and 3 on the Sat)
Went to see my CBT therapist yesterday and he was well chuffed with my progress, altho he thinks my avoidance of doing things could be my downfall.. and he is right, for example; I wont go further than and hour away from home, things like that will stop my progress dead, but i guess i have to build on my sucesses and then who knows......
But he thinks im more advanced than he thought i would be at week 4.. which he and i both know is not a bad thing! He has gave me a sheet which i have to fill in of places i fear going to the most and i have to rate 1-10, ie my worst at 10 would be flying on a plane, where as 1 would be going the local shop on my own.
So yes i have had a productive week, lets keep this up and also thanks to Sarahc for her special mention on her blog, that was sooooooooooooooooooooo sweet and well i honestly think she is a special lady and if only she would accept that!!!
xxx
So....... me and Danny have just booked our wedding date and have started to go and look at Venues, the venues we looked at are not just local ones, we had to go at least 30mins in the car to get to them and i felt great!! A couple of wobbily moments but on the whole it was fantastic, hardly any anxiety at all!!
So that gave me alot of confidence, so then on Saturday just gone 24/1/09, for the 1st time in around 3-4 years i got on a BUS on my OWN!!, up to my local village and well that wasnt it..... I then went into a cafe and ordered myself a breakfast and ate it on my own THEN walked to Danny's fathers house which is only about 5 mins away!!
Honestly... I was on cloud nine, as you need to know i've not left my house in over a year without Danny!!
Then on the Sunday i went to a wedding fayre, loads of people where there, stayed for around 2 hours, THEN, went for a Sunday Dinner in the pub with my Dad/Danny/sister and her 2 friends, and even though it took ages for our food to come, it was lovely and i really enjoyed myself!
Yesterday (Monday) i chilled out as i had/have a headache- yes i awoke with it this morning still. Grrrrr, and again i went to see another 2 wedding venues this morning, one which was FAB!
It could be the one, fingers crossed, oh and for those ppl who read this an think about getting married... think again. It costs a FORTUNE!!!! I feel so sorry for my father, so im trying to keep it right down.
I also WON the lottery on both Wed and Sat last week
(4 numbers on Wed and 3 on the Sat)
Went to see my CBT therapist yesterday and he was well chuffed with my progress, altho he thinks my avoidance of doing things could be my downfall.. and he is right, for example; I wont go further than and hour away from home, things like that will stop my progress dead, but i guess i have to build on my sucesses and then who knows......
But he thinks im more advanced than he thought i would be at week 4.. which he and i both know is not a bad thing! He has gave me a sheet which i have to fill in of places i fear going to the most and i have to rate 1-10, ie my worst at 10 would be flying on a plane, where as 1 would be going the local shop on my own.
So yes i have had a productive week, lets keep this up and also thanks to Sarahc for her special mention on her blog, that was sooooooooooooooooooooo sweet and well i honestly think she is a special lady and if only she would accept that!!!
xxx
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ReplyDeleteI did leave a bloody comment on here!!!
ReplyDeleteDidn't work though.
lol must have been that anthestic you had!! :) xxx
ReplyDeleteIt's really good to hear GOOD NEWS. I bet you have a brill wedding.
ReplyDeleteMy daughter is getting married in 2 weeks. I know all about the cost! She's the 4th daughter to get married - and the 3rd in 3 years. I bet your dad isn't as broke with it all as I am!