Hello...Been a while, right.....
Well im still existing!!
Im back home, fresh after a CBT appointment, not the best one today as i got there at 11am an someone was still in the room so waited 10mins sitting down, there were 4 other people sitting there, i felt really uncomfortable so went outside, anyway.. we finally gets in the room around 11.20 and i start to feel really hot- this is one of my triggers!
Then the sweaty hands started. I know it was because my other half Danny left the doctors where i have my CBT (he usually stays and waits), so im getting all the bodily symptoms, after about 10mins they ease but im still aware of them being there- ppl who suffer anxiety will know what i mean when i say that.
But he thinks my progress is great, BUT, he thinks i can do more, but says im lazy and i need to get myself motivated in my mind to do.. He is right but its my fear thats stopping me, however i really want to be able to do more.... but im happy atm SO i have now changed it so i have fortnight appointments with Rob instead of weekly, then i dnt feel as much pressure to "get out", i wanna do it because i want to, not because i feel i have to!
Oh and did i tell you a good achievement i made!!!
I went wedding dress shopping with my Mum and Sister- Ive never been out with my Mum and Sister for about 5 years!!!
Above are my dress pics- i felt like a princess in it!! Really i did, and i cant wait to wear it:)
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